SUGAR/WIP

SUFFOCATING RUSH OF THOUGHTS AND UNWANTED SURGE IN ADRENALINE JITTERY THOUGHTS FINGERS AND TOES UNCONTROLLABLE URGE TO DRINK DROWN SUBMERGE INTO A COMA LIKE TRANCE/ I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE AGAIN AND AGAIN SATISFIED REWARDING MYSELF OVER AND OVER CHOKING ON CELEBRATION BETRAYING MY BODY LIKE A PUSHER LIKE A BULLY FORCING IT DOWN MY THROAT SUFFOCATING ME MUFFLING MY WORDS MY APPETITE MY DESIRE IS INCREASING DELIBERATELY I INSTANTLY GRATIFY MYSELF CONSUMING MORE AND MORE........I DESERVE IT....I AM HAPPY.... I FEEL LIKE....I REALIZE THAT......I AM NOT ALONE.......